My family can burn for all i care!

they're constantly fighting and it's driving me NUTS!!!
I thought that when i went on leavers that i would miss them....
I didn't....
and it was great, i felt free and on top of the world. When i'm at home
i feel as though i'm suffocating because i can't be my self around
them.

My family knows that i am affraid of Hospitals, sure when i'm with some one it is ok. Not once have i been in a hospital by my self i've always had some one there with me. My *PARENTS* said that i would have some one there with me when i went but because of a massive fight last night i have to go on my own!

out of all us kids i do what i'm suppose 2, i call when my plans change, i tell them where i am. I always help them when they need it. The only thing i don't do when i'm asked is my room... because i like it the way it is and can find where everything is, but when it is tidy the i have to make a mess again to find what i need... so why bother!

((((((((((((( if anyone can acctually be bothered reading this and have made it to this point just be aware that i'm venting!
Getting everything that i feel off my chest b4 i explode and make the situation worse ))))))))))))))))))

My *MOTHER* makes me feel like a slave, always ordering me to do things for her. Make her coffee, bring her dinner, do her washing, crack her toes *shiver* and do you know what her excuse is...

"I haven't the time."

and it's always somebody elses fault never hers, what makes it worse is that my dad sits at his computer hiding from everyone and only ever comes out to stick up for mum. Oh i'm sorry there has been a few time, maybe once or twice a year that he has come out and told her she was wrong and we were right!

Mind you whenever he does that he ends up in the dog house for about a week untill he appologises or untill mum cools off!

this rant has made me feel calmer than what i was. YAY!

now maybe i can ask someone else if they can come with me to the hospital.